What Am I Doing?

There have been a few times in my life where I’ve found myself wondering what I’m doing here—or, to phrase it as most people do, “What’s the purpose of life?” These times usually come when I’m doing something that I’ve long dreamed of doing, but when I’m doing it, find that it alone isn’t enough to give me the fulfillment that I want.

The first time was when I was in Australia in 2005. For years, I’d dreamed and talked about travelling. Stories of Australia and the outback had captured my imagination. And when I realized, between my last two years of university, that I had both the time and the money to go… I was off! After only about a month there, however, I found myself lonely, bored, and disillusioned. Why had I come? Was I just there to have fun? Somehow, that didn’t seem like enough of a reason. The opportunity to buy and read Rick Warren’s book The Purpose-Driven Life helped me greatly in my questioning right then. Now, as I look back on that time, I see that God was using it to draw me closer to Him.

The second time was much more recently, when I became a stay-at-home mom. Again, ever since I was little, that has been my “career goal.” And yet, when I was finally at home with my daughter, trying to figure out how to keep her entertained without losing my sanity, I began wondering if this was all there was to it. Was I just meant to feed, change, burp, and play with a baby? I do believe that motherhood is a high calling, yet in the mundane moments, I questioned myself and my dream. There had to be something more here, something deeper.

The other night, I was surfing blogs while bouncing Sunshine to sleep. Jen’s post caught my attention immediately, as she addressed this question that had so often troubled me. She put the answer into a nutshell: The meaning of life is to know, love and serve God.

“Yes!” I thought. That is what my ponderings have always brought me back to. When I find that my life has become mundane, it is because God is calling me back to the things that He created me to do: knowing, loving, and serving Him. When that attitude underlies all that I do—caring for Sunshine, helping my husband, writing my blog, and doing the other day-to-day tasks that come my way—then my life has purpose.

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